We all have friends, right? the fake and the right one. Oh yeah, some people have 2 faces too. Tonight i feel like I'm going to share my story to you guys. So here's the story..
Let me introduce myself first I'm almost 16 and I'm a high school student. It's hard to leave the junior high school but we have to move on, the life must go on. I still grow up and in that period of time, I’m learning how people live like how they response, give attention, and everything. I found some nice people on my junior high school, they are just really nice. I realize that everyone can socialize but not everyone can fit to the others. I feel like those nice people fit with me, however we still argue but they fit me most unlike the others. Let me tell you about us. We were at the same class, and the people were like the A+ people of school. You know what I mean. I’m not really smart though hahaha. First, its hard to get know the others, there’s always a feeling that makes me worried like ‘are they really nice or just trying to be nice?’ and something like ‘are they trying to be fake?’ you know when smart people are around you, you may think that you’re stupid. At first, I didn’t understand their joke like its really lame but its funny if we know the meaning. I grew up with them and it makes my joke hard to understand for other people. Sometimes when I tell people a joke, they must be like ‘what are you talking about?’ then I explain and they still confuse so I’ll tell them ‘its really funny. You don’t need to understand, just laugh with me.’ I know I sound desperate but it’s true! I knowwwww it’s a shame but I see that as ability. And sometimes people don’t laugh at my joke, they laugh at me because I’m lolling like a freak. Ikr.
We created so many memories. We made lesson fun. Math, science, social education, etc we made them fun. The condition of the class is just the way soooo good for studying. It’s so quiet and if we talk, we talk about the lesson we don’t understand, but we’re still teenager, when the teacher didn’t come we sneaked out to the canteen. Actually we didn’t sneak out, we acted like its normal situation. sooo many stories about this class.
This is a lovely class. In this class I found so many characters of nice people. I feel like they are all nice, some are just too nice. It’s such an honor to get to know them. They really made me think that not all people bad, I can relate to some people and really fit in. They made my mind set that I have to be good to everybody. If you treat people nice, they’ll give it back. And now..
It feels that I’m on the ground. I was at the sky with them then I have to go on to the earth and get through life, the wild one. Life was the way so nice with them, it’s really hard to say goodbye. In this planet called earth, I still learn how people live like what I said. I’ve told you that they made my mind set. In this high school life, I try to be nice to everybody but why some of them just can’t give it back? They are around when they need me but they are nowhere found when I need them most. They only take advantage of me and it hurts, really hurts. I thought people are nice but I’m wrong, I should change my mind set again, that not everyone is nice some people just want more without give something. That’s not gonna work out for your life.
I socialize with all people, the popular, the geek, just to find the right people to be friends with. I know we shouldn’t discriminate in friends but I don’t think I do I mean we have to be friends with all people but we can take some to be friends forever. Let me tell you about my conservation.
The popular people. They are nice, they taught me to interact with friends, they taught me fashion but some of them are egoist, like really egoist. We have to wait for them but they won’t wait for us. Its really unfair, right? And some of them take advantage of me in lesson. They want to be my partner but they don’t want to do a thing. I can’t say no and that’s my problem it seems easy to say ‘no I cant do that’ or ‘sorry but I’m busy’ but I don’t want to lie, I can do everything, the world’s on my hand but some thing are not made only for me like the group assignments, we have to do that in group but they are lazy. They may help but just you know tiny thing but I appreciate any of that.
The geeks. People may think they are boring, but I don’t think so. The smart people are hard to understand but they can be really fun if you do. They are nice but they don’t talk much so if Im with them I feel like I am the tongue hahaha it makes shame if I talk too much with them. They are really smooth and they are good partner in group. Some of them are shy to show their ability, they are smart but they don’t have ability in speaking and socialize with others. I can take the leader position and make something really good if I have a good partner. Unlike with the lazy, I only can make something that I think ‘enough’ because in the group of lazy people no one can think more and give me something to think about. If they give something, I really appreciate.
Time flies and now I found out who they really are. This is my opinion. I got freedom of speech though.
What do you feel when someone kills you from the back? what do you feel when life knocks you down and don’t have anyone to lean on? What do you feel when it feels like the end of the world? What do you feel? Tell me what you feel. It must be hurt, right? How if the nice people turn into a slut? How if the people you trust become a liar?
You know you treat people nice but they don’t give it back and it hurts. How if they have 2 faces? They are nice at first but then become the one who makes your feel worst? How? How could some nice people become bastard? How if the nice people make you cry at the end? How if the nice people don’t know how to treat you right?
I wonder why we have to live in this world full of drama. Why do people being 2 faces? How could the people you trust hurt you, I mean you treat them right but why don’t they give it back? I feel like I always give the best for them, but then they betray me. I have many friends but I feel so alone. I don’t have someone to carry on. I don’t think that I have to win everything because sometimes we just have to fail to feel how it feels and to be a better person.
Why are people so fake? Why do they betray me? Did I do something wrong to them? Which one? Speak your mind! Nowadays, I feel people stay away from me. Everyone. What did I do? Am I hurting them? In which way? Why don’t they just tell me? They’re afraid of hurting myself? But it hurts most when you hear someone doesn’t like you and tell it to other people, maybe they don’t mean to make my reputation bad but they actually do. Just because I don’t talk doesn’t mean I don’t know, sometimes I better keep it in my own self. I know that’s not gonna make the situation better but it makes you stronger and it gives you lesson.
I try to treat people nice to make them treat me they way I do. If I were them I’ll treat the nice people nicely. They are nice to me, why don’t I just be nice to them? But now the lesson learned. Not all people good. Some of them just want to make you bad, some of them want to make you down. There’s always a person who will do everything to make your life pathetic.
God, I’m sorry for all the tears I know I shouldn’t cry because you never test me up to my limit. I know I don’t have to complain because you’ve given me so many things I need. I just can’t thank you enough for everything. Thanks for always be there for me and you are the best to lean on. May I ask? Sorry if ask too much but I’m confuse of this heartache. Please give me strength to get through this, I know I can do this, please give me strength and power. Don’t let anger and revenge control myself. Please make me a better person. I’m tired of being too nice to people that I can’t say no. please give me that power to say no. I know we have to help others but why don’t they help me when I need them most? Why they are so hard to find when I have no one to carry on? Why God?
By the way, thanks God you always make me a better person. It’s such an honor for me that you think I can handle all this things. When life knocks me down, it’s the best time for me to down on my knees and pray. Pray is the best thing I can do. I talk to You in my prayers. Thanks for always listening and give advice although You don’t talk but You do make the situation better. Thanks... I cant thank you enough..
And for those people who hurt me, listen. I don’t trust easily if I trust you please note this; don’t make me regret the trust I give to you. But now, you’ve hurt me and it really hurts. You know you cant really bandage the damage, you cant fix a heart. Heart is like mirror, if you broke it, you may can fix it but it won’t be the same, there’ll be the broken line. I may forgive, but sorry I may not forget that. The pain you’ve made in me, it will last forever. You made yourself a bad reputation so enjoy that! God is fair. Karma exists and you will pay for what you did to me. By the way thanks for making me cry and love God more. You made me realize that not everyone nice and you also taught me that I can do everything unbelievable. So.. thanks and I will always be the same, just a better person.
