Hello it's been so long since the last time I came here. So how are you all? I'm so nervous for uni. okay, so high school is finally met its end and i just wanna share what i feel about it.
I wasn't a popular girl whether in middle school or high school. but at least I wasn't so nerd in high school like I was in mid school. there are a lot of changing in myself. like, my hair was curly in mid school, well actually it still is but i do my hair now. but i thank God for that, because if i did my hair since i was in mid school, maybe i would get lost in 'bad' ummm what do i call it? friendship? idk lol. I wasn't the girl who go to school wearing makeup, care about their look, wanna look hot so people can compliment me. I wasn't that girl. I was a very shy girl, I didn't talk with stranger or new people. I was in my comfort zone when i was in mid school. really. I only friends with people I want to and people who are forced to be friends with me, i mean like classmates. I know it sounds like racism but no, if i could be friends with any people, i would. but i just couldn't that time. i told you i was so shy.
then, it comes to high school. when i was a freshman, i still didn't do my hair. I came naturally (i didn't say i don't come naturally now). but my life's motto is still the same. 'do them good, so they will do you good. if they don't, at least you try. nothing's wrong with being good.' and i think it works, and it really works. not in term that they give it back, some yeah some no, you know. but they will have that feeling to feel sorry when it comes to something that breaks your heart. do you get me? they will have that feeling to make you happy, unless they are heartless. and i confess that there are many people like that, but trust me, always seek good in people because why? you just can't control them but at least you can help them fix their heart. i believe that in every human, there is a spot of kindness in the heart. it's human nature to have that.
okay, back to the topic. I can say that i'm surrounded by good people. we always have to think like that even though if it's not true. because why? because your mind speaks better. If you talk and you believe, you have a bigger chance for it to be reality. always think positive because it leads you to something good. trust me. I know people are rude, but who cares? you cant change it. but you can change the way you think about it. at least if you don't really care about it, it won't matter. people are mean but we can always be good. always try to be a good person, you'll be loved by many people.
so my high school was changing in time when i try to change myself. at first, there's this girl who came to my house, staying. she is so kind, she taught so many things, include doing my hair. since then i get used to it and until now. people say i look lovely with that.
in grade 11th, i get to know so many people. Alhamdulillah i got a chance to be friends with what people call 'highschool sweethearts' and be one of them. then i started to know how to communicate with people, to socialize. the point is, i get more... social? lol.
but the sad truth is that i'm sad to see there are many people who easily judge each others. who only friends based on the people they hang out with, the amount of money they have, the brand they wear, the car they use. it's just sad. people shouldn't be like that. but it's their life, the most important thing is, don't be like them. remember, do them good. no harm, no disadvantage. life is so beautiful when you're a good person. :)
